pigtails and His presence...

I had one of the most profound personal encounters with my Jesus this morning and I'm still in that "mesmerized-reflective" state that such an encounter will leave you in. I was attending a conference and we were encouraged to take a few moments, relax, and imagine Jesus walking towards us. I did as told and began to imagine Him approaching me, and He did... in just a few brief seconds, it stopped being simply my imagination and became a supernatural encounter that just blew me away!

I began to experience a vision of Jesus walking towards me, taking my hair down and putting it in pigtails. (Which confirmed a word shared during a night of prayer this week about God seeing us ladies as His little girls- pigtails, pretty dresses and all.) I began to try and tell Him that "He knew I always hated being a little girl..." and all the reasons why, but I couldn't speak. He leaned over, whispering in my ear "Kimmy". Again I tried to speak, angrier than before, and tell Him that I despised that name. And again I could articulate no words. He grabbed my hand and in that instant, EVERY trace of that anger disintegrated...

He began to skip and because He had my hand, I went along. He took me to a flower garden. As He opened the gate, we were sucked in like a vacuum by the irresistible beauty. My senses heightened as I encountered the colors, scents, and even songs of the lush growth. Flowers I'd never seen in any location or book engulfed us. It was truly breath-taking. There was a radiance that pulsed from each blossom and the air was an intoxicating, sweet perfume...

We approached a low bench, with room for only one. He sat and instinctively I sat on His lap, looked up at Him in sheer joy, exhaled, and laid my head on His chest. As soon as I did, I became aware that I had "melted" into Him and He and I were now one. He began to point out the awe-inspiring beauty of our surroundings and laying there with my eyes peacefully shut I agreed. Then, drawing my attention, He looked me in the soul and began to speak words I have "heard" many many times before but this time I received them as truth, and it set me utterly free at a level I can't even begin to describe... "You are exceedingly more radiant (than these flowers). Your fragrance overwhelms My heart, allures, and captivates my attention. The sound of your being, your very presence, fills My ears and brings My heart joy." I was rendered, yet again, speechless...

Then together, we began to observe this one particularly magnificent flower bud begin to slowly blossom as if responding to some divine invitation to do so. We were totally captivated and overjoyed at the simple process as petal after petal began to stretch outward and upwards. "Kim, do the same. I love it. Open up to me. I love your blooming. You are altogether lovely." And I felt my heart responding and releasing its unveiled beauty. And I, His beloved daughter, sat there basking in His affirmation, thankful to be in pigtails and His presence...